Where to start...
Well...

I am alive? 8D;;;
Barely though lawl;;;;

And I still draw believe it or not! it's just that I am not doing anything serious...or well I've tried but failed like a million times.
Idk why really...whenever I get serious it spoils the fun about artsing I guess.
There is SO many things I want to be able to do...there have been SO many opportunities for me to kick of and show people what I'm REALLY made of...SO many stories to tell...so many things I want to share...

But I don't know how to or why even, showing stuff on the netz is kind of scary nowadays.

I mean what do people like? what do they NOT like? will I really get more attention when posting fanart than original? Are my OCs REALLY original? Who is serious and who isn't serious when building and working on their dA page? Should one post for fun or is this srs bizznizz?

What is the POINT?

I mean...what happened to forums, pchats, oekaki boards, drawing just for the sake of having FUN and sharing with others/working with others?

Maybe it's just me idk, I am getting old now I guess.

I mean not even tegakiE helped getting that special wonderful feeling back from the early pchat days, back when you really didn't need skills or anything to get stalks or comments).
I tried...god I TRIED to get into that tegakirpingcrap but it just doesn't work.
Either I lose interest or they turn the whole shit into friggin romance bizz!

How is your new OC gonna be original if you keep repeating the same friggin story over and over and over and--
Oh whatever...

idk this internet and art thing...it's not fun anymore...in fact every single minute of online artsing feels like RAEP! FRIGGIN' RAEP!

It's cold, it's plain, it's hard, it's sandpapery, it's slippery and it hurts!>:

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But alas I can't stop...I can't just leave and ignore the fact that it used to be fun once to be in here...
I log into this place like...once every month or so nowadays.


...*sigh*

*SIIIIGH*

...

I'll just go sit in a corner somewhere and doodle gaypr0n IRL all by myself...